bogeyandruby

Random stuff, reflections on the meaning of life and death, humour, self-deprecation, a bit of bad poetry.

I’m turning fifty-one tomorrow. Not sure if I’m relieved or a little disappointed that it isn’t another milestone birthday. It would be difficult to beat last year’s celebration: a roomful of people I love singing happy birthday, contributing to a cause I believe in.

A year ago today, I was stressing over my speech. Fifteen minutes later, it was all over. Over but not forgotten, that is. It just so happens to be immortalized on YouTube and you can listen to it here if you have the time, fifteen minutes to be exact.

My birthday speech took stock of a whole decade, no wait, a lifetime. This year, I’m reflecting on the first year of my sixth decade via blog-entry format.

One thing I’ve realized this year is that I’ve stopped counting how long I would have been married to my ex-husband had we stayed together. I am even losing track of how long we have been apart. A friend of mine once told me it takes four years to recover from a failed marriage. I didn’t believe her when I started my ending, but guess what? It’ll be four years this March… and the kids are alright!

Time to press refresh and make new memories. Time to declutter this old heart and open it up to new love.

What else have I done lately? Well, I haven’t accomplished a whole lot of personal growth. It’s been more of an existence really, but it’ll have to do for now, at least until my boy is a little older. I do use the word stateless and mindful a lot, particularly in Facebook posts. It stops my fickle mind from wandering back and forth between regrets and worries. And it reminds me to be grateful for all that I do have today.

It isn’t an easy life. Nor is it an exciting one. But at fifty-one, it is a life filled with rich meaning and connection. If you happen to be reading this now, then you are a part of that connection. And for that I am grateful.

Peace out.

xoxo

3 thoughts on “51

  1. Anonymous says:

    Happy Birthday, dear sweet friend.

    Like

  2. Anonymous says:

    xox…the 4 year thing, was that me who said that? Because I used to say that all the time. I'm glad it worked for you. Unfortunately, it's been 7 years for me, and the kid is still not quite all right. Happy birthday again, hope you have a wonderful day.

    Like

  3. Anonymous says:

    Love reading you, Sharon. Your words flow and you have a way to communicate that is both endearing and direct. Love it!Coffee/tea soon? :-)Blessed to be in your friendly circle!CeeCee

    Like

Leave a Reply

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in:

WordPress.com Logo

You are commenting using your WordPress.com account. Log Out /  Change )

Google photo

You are commenting using your Google account. Log Out /  Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out /  Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out /  Change )

Connecting to %s

AngelineM's Blog

A little BIT OF THE EVERY DAY............A good writer is basically a story teller, not a scholar or a redeemer of mankind. - Isaac Bashevis Singer

Chocoviv’s Lifestyle Blog

Mommy blogger, who loves to share what she loves!

Dare Boldly

Artful Words to Inspire Fearless Living

Anna's reading list

My book reviews

aswathi thomas

a look into the mind of a crazy indian girl

Lisa Anne Tindal

Redemption Stories - Words and Art

No Stress

Stress Management Techniques

the barbie project

An experiment conducted for my personal amusement

Bird Therapy

Writing about the therapeutic benefits of birdwatching

Crossed Eyes and Dotted Tees

Writing, Blogging and Books

Travellers Wanderers

Live. Love. Travel.

Vignettes and Bagatelles

Read my mind. Little stories in a big universe.

the long goodbye

to a dying lover, by Roy Cross

The Death Project

Susan Briscoe

The Home Coming

My journey to Ireland and England to Meet my Birth Mother: A Blog in 7 Installments

THIRTEEN THOUGHTS

Beauty and lifestyle blog

Modes of Flight Blog

Illustrated Adventure

%d bloggers like this: