bogeyandruby

Recently, my son overheard me telling someone that I wanted to spend more time on my blog and understood it to mean I was embracing my inner blob. Kids! We had a good laugh over it but he still has no clue what a blog is and I suspect he was just being polite when he apologized for offhandedly calling me a blob. So why haven’t I been writing more entries? Well, the main reason is that I’m not a writer. I mean, I can write stuff like Facebook posts and charts at work and the occasional long-winded email, if necessary, but it doesn’t come naturally. In fact, much of the time it’s a struggle, probably in part because I don’t have a plan when I start writing. And because I don’t have a plan, more often than not, it ends up being one long paragraph. Like this. But I’m going to persist because I want to get better at it. Ideas are swirling around in my head all the time. The challenge is how to express them in a way that touches the six people who happen to be following my blog at the moment. Honest. I’m thrilled that anyone would bother to follow me. Especially with a production rate of 1.5 entries a year.

New idea, new paragraph, right? The other thing I have to get over is my perfectionism. Yes, despite the perpetual messy state of my desk at work, I am a perfectionist deep down, a failed one at that. It’s one of the reasons I don’t cook. Can’t stand the idea of messing up my shiny kitchen. I’ve been reading a lot about perfectionism over the week-end, how it stops people from writing, cooking, trying something new or finishing something started. I think the key is to put it all in perspective. I’m not a writer but I can still write. It doesn’t have to be perfect but it can still be meaningful for me and hopefully for my six followers.

This one’s for you, I. For asking me if I wrote on my blog today.

Count on another entry soon. I’m on a roll.